WOW, I did not realize how long it has been since I posted.
Sorry for those whom follow me. It has been a personally crazy month. I also got pretty discouraged with the site, Etsy, FB, and well most of life. I am better and will explain later.
Let me see if I can get y’all caught up on my month.
In February I turned 47 yrs old and I am still loving this decade. Granted I hate my weight, fat body, and my skin. Thank God for Tom, my BFF Scott, mom, and lil sis whom all remind me on my down days they don't last forever.
The War on Ukraine has had me very distraught and praying for the whole country. It just breaks my heart. Every time I find a charity I want to give to help aid the Ukrainians, only a small fraction of my money gets to the people whom need it the most. The best I can do is pray until another door opens.
My skin has been pretty good, except the last two weeks. I purposely exposed my skin to items I am allergic to and I paid the price. The flare up was not worth the exposure, by no means. Did I learn my lesson, YES! Super sexy matching push-up bra and panties are gone from my drawer, sadly. Somehow, I don't see simple and sensible cotton pjs getting my man's eye.
When this flare up started I just so happen to been approved for a new prescription to help AD (atopic dermatitis). I should have been on it for the last 2.5 weeks, but I just can’t get myself to take the medicine. I know there are a number of people on biologic medicines and not knocking them by no means. My son was on Xolair for 9 months. I know for many they are the last resorts. I just feel there are other options for me and I have not gotten to the last resort, yet. The side effects are scary and life altering, and I am not ready to take the risk, yet.
So, how did I manage this last flare up after almost a month of great skin? I did have to use my steroid ointment for two days and one application each day. Mostly at night so I can sleep. My back up ointments can not reach the itch from the eczema if I don’t catch it in time. Back story – I did stop my Allegra to see if it was helping and it was. I have to pick my clothing carefully and just wait for it to go away. I use my new lotion, honey butter, my CBD cream, and then I sleep. When I have my flare ups I am so tired because my body is fighting hard against itself. I have been trying to get back to gluten free to help with other health issues, but it has been a struggle.
While I was dealing with my flare up and screaming and crying inside because I had to leave the house. Leaving the house means clothes and clothes hurt my skin when my skin is inflamed and angry. But, I do because that is who I am. I put on some rouge and a smile and hit the road. Just let it be known I am screaming and crying and want to rip off all the clothes touching my skin. I want to be in my 100% super soft cotton pjs and house pants. Instead, I cleaned my house, took mother in-law out for a beauty day, and hosted a small and way too short visit for her niece from California. IT WAS WORTH THE TEARS. To see my husband’s cousin and my mother in-law so happy. I would do it all again, really.
Then today March 15, the family and I received a thank you gift basket from Judy. It was a very nice treat as well love cookies. I am a terrible selfie taker. Sorry for the few bad pics, but it was fun and they had to get back on the road.
What else has kept me so busy? Doctor appointments for the kids, my mother in-law, a four day weekend, time with my mom before she left for Maine, and I found a small business salon. I have been eyeing this place for a few years. I had to go for blood work and a few doors down I decided to finally stop into the salon to talk to someone about coloring my hair. Thanks to my new found hypersensitive skin box color hurts. The lady I spoke to did a quick patch test for free (she just so happened to have a color being applies that was a close match to my natural color). For 30 minutes I sat there and I only felt a tingle and then poof gone. I did have a small reaction 24 – 48 hrs later, but it went away fast. Against, my gut feeling I got my hair colored. I was having anxiety attacks as I was so afraid I made the wrong choice. My mom got her hair cut while I sat under the dryer. I think the dryer is what made me feel uneasy. Heat is not a friend to my skin. I sat waiting for a burn, a sting, a sign that I should not even think of coloring my hair.
I had none just my over active fear of the possible allergic reaction because a patch is different from the whole head. I had NO REACTION. I was so dumb I cried when I saw the white hair gone. I looked younger and more like myself. Not someone whom has had their fair share of stress and genetically induced white hair. It took my husband until 4am Sunday morning to say he noticed my lack of white hair on the Friday (a day after I got my color). He said I look younger and he will always have the money for me to color my hair. I hugged him and said I am thinking purple for MegaCon. He was really quiet. I said not all purple, but black with purple highlights.
With all the cleaning of my house for my mother in-law, by birthday, and last Saturday dinner with my lil sister and family my kitchen table is back to being my work station.
Lately, I have had a creative streak and getting merchandise for my Etsy shop and for Orlando MegaCon 2022. I get a small section of the two tables and I am hoping to sell big. Above all I am also there to have fun!!! I love the cosplayers and dream of the day I have the confident to cosplay. I am a huge Sailor Moon fan. Now, not huge like when I was NKOTB fan where I could rattle off stats like a stalker. Just, I love the whole story, the beauty in the original artwork, the love between Sailor Moon and her Senshi, and her eternal love for Endymion. She is loving, kind, strong while be weak, feared and fearful of losing her love and loved ones.
Sorry got sidetracked again ^_~. Last time I erased my sidetracked…LOL
I have been trying to find my balance in my life again. It seems and unending task. Do I spend my day cleaning the house top to bottom and then bottom to the top the next day? I have in the past. I spent so much time worried about if I am raising good little humans. I know I have made my fair share of parenting mistakes. I still make them and they kids are teenagers. My kids live in a world I only dreamt of as a teen myself. This is uncharted territory for me and so much rides of me being my best. My kids have seen me not at my best. They have seen me get back up and try, try, and try again.
Oh, back to what I have been doing. I have been taking things slower for the most part. I know I will have days I have to be on the run, but with that I have my awesome husband and kids home to help me. It is because they help I can run for and with my mom, mother in-law, work Etsy, or just take a down day.
There are so many things I want to share with whomever is reading. My mistakes as a parent and as an individual.
Please stop by my Etsy shop and see all the items I have made. Please share your comments below. Let me know you read and if you like my posts or not. I really think that is one of the reasons this site has slipped to the back burner. No one has really been able to connect or willing to share. I will try, but I have just 3 more days of school until the kids are on Spring Break and this is the first Spring Break with a working adult/child teenager person. What are your plans for Spring Break?
I bet you can't guess my plans. It is only a week, so I hope to just chill. Not getting up before the crack of dawn. Just destroy any normal sleep patterns I have now. Then I can struggle for the last two months of school like the kid. I love life ^_~
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